IAMColonel says:
trust me ... ive said that to myself .. around .. 30 million times. but i cant help it. shes not one of those usual druggo ho bitches .. .. and really .. i have the worst feeling inside me when i hear about her meeting my friends. i cant believe it .. it makes me feel inferior. Ive never actually given a shit about anyone before, but her .. i dont know. Its weird. I actually care so much im to effing scared to go meet her. The thing is .. i didnt act on this, 'I' didnt go meet her. Now my friends are ... and i cant control it. I jsut got told earlier, that i cant control someones life. And well .. i damn already have. Through the bloody internet. Now im thinking .. how the hell did i get a girl off drugs, and onto the right side of the tracks ... and now i cant even keep her away from my friends .. i cant go up to them and say stay away from her .. coz then it'd be the most uber teasing ever, and it jsut wouldnt work .. then there gonna say i like her .. (which .. i probably do .. but internet .. um no thanks . not yet) .. if i was going to be with her .. it'd be the person that i helped her become or she is becoming .. not that old person .. and i dont think she is that person. Really, i wanted to wait ... see what happened .. i had the cards in my hands ... but now .. there all gone .. i have no control.
01 Dec 2006 - 00:26
Melbourne - Nbo says:when i git my psss im going to have a nice car an have sex in it